So...It's my Birthday! (UPDATED!)

So Today Jan. 4, 2010 marks my 19th bday!! I am super excited and not sure what today will bring lol because it is kind of a crazy day at our house here with my brothers and sisters going back to school, and my mom starting daycare again, and me going to the doctor at 2pm(I know what a great bday present) haha :). Anyways I do hope to do something fun and just see what today brings for sure! I am going to make either a Hungry-Girl recipe with Vita Tops or one of her cupcake ones, and I will deff. post that later! I will also add to this post later tonight but I thought I would just leave a quick something! Hope you are all having a good day and hopefully I will too :o)!

***UPDATE***

SO WOW, what a day lol! A day filled with fun, laughter, emotions, excitement and amusingness all in one! Today as I said above was my 19th bday, and thank you to those of you who feel I am more mature than 19 lol, I get that a lot actually and sometimes do feel like 30 inside lol ;o), but that's ok, guess just a lot of life experiences lol. Even though I knew today was my birthday last night was kind of a rough night for me. It's days like today and holidays where it seems like emotional stuff comes creeping up on you ya know? It really becomes apparent too with family stuff because you always tend to draw near to your family at a time like this.

For me it was tough thinking about this birthday being the first without my sweet Papou(grandfather). For those of you who just started following me, my grandfather has lived with my family for the last 6 years and was like a father to me and was an amazing man, but passed away this past Dec. 18th after being ill for a while. It was just tough because he made my birthday's seem so special and always made a big deal out of them and made me feel like a princess. I have had him though for 18 birthdays, and each one of those I will be SO grateful for! I know he knows it's my birthday today but instead he is looking down on me and smiling wishing me happy birthday rather than being down here, and I am ok with that :). Another thing that is hard, is not having my own real dad in my life on a day like today. Again if you just started reading my blog, my father left the family a year ago after having a 3 year affair and has nothing to do with me or my siblings, which also had a lot to do with my weight and my journey. Anyways it's days like today where Dad's are supposed to be there and while I don't think about it a lot, it strikes you at times and it hits hard, especially not having my Papou to fill the gap. I do know though I have a heavenly father above who blessed me on my bday and that is VERY awesome!

Aside from all of those emotional things my day started out great from a visit from a wonderful friend Brittney. She was coming by to pick of some clothes and just happened to have birthday hugs and a wonderful card for me as well which made my day, she is a sweetheart for sure. Following that I got at least 60 notifications on facebook full of Happy Birthdays and sweet messages, some from people I hadn't talked to in years! I then went to my Doctor for an app. on something I am going to blog about later this week, who even he gave me a huge birthday hug along with a celebration of a NORMAL BMI and another 10lbs gone since I last saw him in November! I got to stop by the people's house I babysit for an got many birthday hugs and cards from the 4 sweet children I love SO much!

I of course kept up my normal routine and went to spin tonight/ran for a bit but this time it was special because my brother went with me which is AWESOME! My brother underneath me is named Kameron and we are only 17 months apart and super close to say the least, even if we don't always admit it lol! Anyways he has battled with weight on and off, not as bad as I did but he has about 20 or 30lbs to lose and eats pretty bad at times. He has been fighting the urge to come with me to spin and I have asked SO many times, and he finally on his own decided he would go! I was SO excited and he liked it a lot! I made him sit in the front with me lol (he was less than thrilled) but he made it the whole class and tonight it was intense lol! I was so proud of him and he plans to come back with me Wed :o). The gym of course was NUTS with all the New Year's resolutions lol, but hey at least they are starting :o). And to top off the gym day I got to see a friend Courtney who gave me a sweet present as well and even gave me a low calorie treat lol!

After leaving the gym the lady I babysit for who is also a good friend picked me up for a special coffee date at Starbucks. Well little did I know her and my mom planned a little surprise get together with 4 of our other good girlfriends from church. All AMAZING women who I totally love and look up to, and it was great! Me being the ditz I am I was like wow, how strange we are all here at the same time then I was like.....WAIT lol! It was great and they got me some great presents and we had an awesome time! I would totally have pictures by my camera is currently MIA which is making me a little nervous lol, I have to find it!

Probably my favorite thing I received on my bday was this....

I don't if any of you read her blog but I LOVE it and I have wanted this book for some time or since it came out at least and my mom surprised me with it this morning! I love it for sure, and cannot wait to cook some of these amazing things for my family and friends, I love cooking by the way in case I haven't made that clear lol! I am sure you are wondering too what did I eat, CAKE....ICE CREAM....PIE lol?? What does a 1200 calorie girl eat for her bday.....

WITH 1/4 cup Sugar Free Slow Churned Neapolitan Ice Cream..YUM! And of course 4 tablespoons of FREE Cool Whip...double YUM! Probably one of my favorite treats ever and guess what only....170 calories and like 3 grams of fat, O YEAH lol! I could go on for hours on Vitatops and there wondrous goodness lol but wow they are truly amazing and if you haven't tried them yet you totally should! Not to mention with Free Cool Whip that only have 15 calories a tablespoon SO YUMMY! Well I had a wonderful birthday to say the least and feel blessed beyond belief to know I spent it 165lbs light this year and healthy and can hopefully, God willing, look forward to many more HEALTHY bdays! Thank you all for your sweet comments on here or emails or Facebook messages I LOVED them all and each one made me smile and made my day! Have a wonderful evening!

~Kassandra