The New Year as "The New Me"!

So today is the day...the first day of the new year as the new me! When I really thought about the fact 2009 was really going to be gone, part of me was kind of sad for a minute, because I loved 2009, because I found me...finally! But....then I started thinking, yes 2009 was amazing and sure it was be one of my favorite years aside from the year I marry/have kids/was born lol, BUT...2010 can be even better and is just as exciting because I get to experience it, but as the NEW ME!

I look at that picture of me in the purple shirt and can only smile because even though I was a little nervous at that time when it was taken, I KNEW that some how, some way I would achieve my goal by next year and this WAS my time and there was no stopping it lol. I know for me I have spent countless New Year's making weight loss resolutions, I actually think I have been doing that since I was like 12 lol. I remember one year where I did make that with my brother and we went down and our basement and worked out right then and there for like an hour at midnight lol. Those resolutions always sounded so good until....the next morning and you were starving for breakfast, and you think....uh what resolution lol, and what was I thinking. Or sometimes for me they would last a week or two and I would make baby steps, but the problem was it was "just" a resolution, not a life changing thing, just something I was doing because I should ya know? I think that is why I didn't wait until New Year's last year, just because I had failed so many times at that point, I figured I might as well just have my own day which ended up being Dec. 11th as I am sure you all know lol.

This year's New Year's Eve was So much fun! Every year I would sit there with not many plans, no confidence at all and just wishing I could be that girl who got to go out and have fun, and get all dressed up and look cute. Well this year I was that girl and it was So great! I went one of my best friend's down to Indianapolis to shop for a cute outfit, which was tons of fun because we met another friend Monica down there too. We went to Forever 21 which used to be a store I only bought accessories in and now I can actually fit into the clothes, and even swap them and try stuff on with friends. I remember just standing in the corner waiting for my friends to try all the cute stuff on and just thinking..."Kassey, when is it going to be your turn, when are you going to give up the food?". This time though it was a blast and I got something I a.) wanted to buy and b.) LOVED! We then went back to Hannah's house and spent like 2hrs getting ready lol, and then set off for our first stop my friend's house Liz. We stayed and visited for a while and then went off to some other parties of our friend Monica's. It was just fun to finally be comfortable being me and being happy with me :o).

In case you all are wondering I did not give in to ANY New Year's Eve temptations and let's just say there were TONS lol. I knew that one drink/piece of food could ruin it all and I knew my New Year's Day weigh-in was today! I was a  little nervous that staying out late and stuff would mess up my sleep which then messes up my weigh-in, but I figured it's one night. Well even though I went to bed at the wee-hours of the night lol, my body automatically woke at 8:30am or my brain did at least, so I stumbled down to the scale to see the verdict lol. I was expecting a 1-2lbs loss which would have been great. Well..last week I was at 147.8lbs, and then this week guess what pops up......144.8 SO that means 3lbs!!!! I have not had a three pound loss in weeks so I was literally OVER the moon! This included me going out to eat at Chili's with a friend (which I was a tad nervous on the Sodium and Fat) and also being out late and not getting much sleep. I did though REALLY push it in the gym and worked out every day this week besides Friday which was Christmas. I SO wanted to dance and yell when I saw the number lol! It's so crazy and neat to think I am now closer to the 130's than 140's and my goal is just a measly 14lbs away!!

So what are my resolutions for this year?? I will say it's strange not saying to lose weight haha. I mean yes I still have a few pounds to go but those are done deals in my head lol! I KNOW those 14lbs will go so there is no point in making them resolutions. But instead, I want to enjoy the new me this year! I want to do things I always let my weight hold me back from, be more confident, maybe meet a boyfriend haha(that's going to be tough), go out more, enjoy being young and having great friends, and also continue to push myself in the gym and really get myself at the ultimate goal by next year, lean,fit,toned and sculpted lol! Aside from enjoying the new me, I was to spread my story as FAR as I can, and encourage as many other girls as I can and anyone who can benefit from it! I want others to experience a 2009 like I did and change their life and get back in to control. I don't know how my story is going to continue to get out there, or what doors God will open and fate will allow, but I KNOW it an happen and I am willing to do whatever. I feel I was blessed with this experience for a reason and that there is not enough out there to help others, and I know for me sometimes I felt SO alone while doing this, but your not and you can DO IT too! So know that your resolutions aren't just a year thing or something for a couple months, but make them "Life goals" or "Life resolutions" that will change you forever :o). I hope everyone had a great New Year's and I cannot wait to see what 2010 has in store :o)!

~Kassandra

P.S. Today I figured out my BMI for being 5'4 and 144lbs...24.7 and guess what normal weight is 24.9!! I am SOO excited considering I started out around 56 BMI! I also need to change my picture because I am now 165lbs down! :)