Chances.....

What are the chances a 309lbs girl would in a year teach spin, what are the chances that same girl would go from a size 28/30 to a 8/10, what are the chances that girl would LOVE going to the Y, when even thinking about it a year ago made her cry, what are the chances that girl would get her own article in the newspaper because she lost over 144lbs in a year, what are the chances that girl could go from SAD and LONELY to HAPPY and CONFIDENT.....experts and studies would say slim to none, I say those chances are possibilities now :o) and defiant ones at that!

The song that plays on my blog when you first get to it is now one of my favorites by "Five For Fighting" and it is called Chances. I had heard it before but I kind of stole it off the new Biggest Loser preview lol. I like the sounds of it, but now even more like the lyrics. It is all about taking a chance, I believe he is taking one on a girl in here, but my chance was a little different. As we all know Dec. 11, 2008 I took a chance, a chance at losing this weight, a chance at getting my life and weight back in check, a chance a new beginning and a better future. As I said above most would have doubted me and a lot did don't worry. But I took that chance and made it a possibility and it worked :o). As the song says "Chances are more than expectations, their possibilities!". I say this because this week I took the one of the biggest chances yet, teaching spin, something as I said below I NEVER would have thought would be possible, a chance I never thought I would get, but I did :). Also today was my weigh-in and guess what.....3lbs down AGAIN! That right there is MORE than a chance, it is something I made happen, but never would have guessed. I did the weigh myself at least 10 times on two different scales to be sure but it was right lol! Chances were though at my weight I should have lost maybe 1lb after having a bigger 3lb loss last week, but it can be proved wrong and I did it!

This showed me there is no magic in life, it's about taking those chances and making them reality and as I keep saying "possibilities". Taking them and running with them and believing they aren't just chances but something you can do if you really try hard! I know sometimes it's SO hard to believe you can really do it, and that this time it will work, or that you could ever have results like other so (like the Biggest Loser), trust me I was there. Day after day trying and trying thinking I could NEVER do it, and that I was just destined to be overweight, and that was my demon in life I was just going to have to live with. But NO, it was all about how I viewed and knowing that I am NOT going to accept it being a "chance" in life, or something that "might" happen but yet an achievable possibility and goal. I go back to my Lance Armstrong saying "Pain is temporary, but quitting lasts forever". I know how tough it gets as your doing it, and I hope to never forget that, but know this hardship and trials especially in the beginning are temporary, and the rewards will be SO much greater! I say this because I know a lot of you might have started New Year's Resolution and this about the time people say "Ok had enough!" lol, but make your different. I say this too because I never and still don't sometimes believe what I did was possible and I always thought it was some distant chance, but you can change that and make it a real possibilities :o).

Along with my weigh-in update today I am doing the "Show Us Where You Live" through Kelly's Korner, and this week it is "New Year's Resolutions". I then realized I never announced mine on here, I just talked about how it isn't weight loss lol. Here are 5 top resolutions for my 2010!

1. Get to my goal (I know I said no weight loss but I KNOW I will hit, but it is still a goal of mine! so now I have officially 11lbs to make it to 130 and have lost 179lbs total!)

2. Share my story with as many people as I can, especially teen girls and kids! (I am not sure how this will all be accomplished, whether it's speaking to girls or people, blogging more and more on here, speaking at my Y, or outreach in my community, but I feel God has given me my journey and success to share it with others, because I know I did nothing special and I did nothing NO ONE else can not do themselves. I feel in America it's time for a huge change and anything I can do to help I am more than willing!)

3. Continue to make good grades and do well as a Freshman in College. ( Even though I would love to travel the world lol, education is important and I am excited to keep learning and one day have an amazing job as a Psychologist or LCSW(Licensed Clinical Social Worker) and help others :o). So I know I need to keep good grades and do well in school!)

4. Wear a cute bathing suit for the FIRST time and feel good in it! ( So this may seem a little dumb for a New Year's Resolution, but going to the pool is a HUGE part of our summer. We go to a local swim club here and swim almost daily and I also work there so I am there a ton. Each year my stomach gets sick about March because I know I have two months to "pretend" to lose like 50lbs lol, and hope I can even find a swimsuit in stores that fits. Two years ago I had to order a 30/32 on line and that barely fit. I always went to the pool too, but felt horrible and hated every minute of it because of my huge body. Nothing is quite as telling as a swimsuit, so this year, NO I am not going for the bikini lol, but a cute tankini I actually LIKE rather than just fit into would be amazing, and also to have confidence in it would be awesome as well!) Here are a few I like so far that are "goal" suits!:

(No I will probably never look like the Victoria's Secret girls, because their bodies are not human lol, but hey ya gotta shoot for the stars right :o)!!!)

5. And lastly, I want to get to know the new me better, grow socially, spiritually, and mentally, because it's all new ground for me! (I know it sounds silly to think I don't know me anymore but really I am a WHOLE new person, inside and out. Mentally I think a lot different, see things different and do them different and feel different too. Spiritually I am having to trust in God more for my strength rather than turn to food. Also socially, life is SO different with people looking up to me, GUYS talking to me lol(a whole other subject haha), now helping friends out and having them look to be for advice, and also just being there to help even strangers, and dealing with the new ways people see the "new me". It is deff. not just you outer body that changes during something like this but the whole you does, and it takes time to adjust for sure, but it's a good adjustment, a VERY good one!)

Well that is is for today, a lot in one post lol! I hope everyone has a great Friday and then a great weekend! I usually don't post this close together so deff. check out the post before this, it's all about my spin class teaching experience :o). I figured with the news of this mornings weigh-in why wait since it was right there and fresh on my mind lol! Have a great day everyone and thank you all for your comments and emails, I love them all!

~Kassandra