Who Would have thought???

SO this week is FLYING by! I am not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing haha :), I mean I am glad it's been going but break is flying and second semester is right around the corner for me. I have been really busy these last two days working and then running errands and working my tail off in the gym. It has been so great to have all my family home and also friends who are normally out at college. Sunday night I had a blast with a friend of mine who has been my best friend since 7th grade, Sydney. We went to dinner and then to a movie and saw Sherlock Holm's, which I HIGHLY recommend! I am not usually into those kinds of movies, I am more a chick flick kind of girl lol, but this was awesome and so good! Rachel McAdams is in it and she is deff. on of my favorite actresses for sure and she did a great job :o). It was just neat to get to spend time with my friend and catch up because normally she is 2 hrs away at IU. Here are a few pictures from that night :).

Then last night on Monday night my good friend Hannah, who is home from Purdue went to the gym with me and took spin class with me which was so fun! She loved it! After that we got ready and went out and saw "The Blind Side" which all I can say for that is....AMAZING! I had heard so much but wow, one of those you HAVE TO HAVE TO see! Very neat and very inspiring, especially since I went to an inner-city school where there were TONS of kids like that, that at the time frustrated me because I didn't realize where they had come from, but I know for me I forget not everyone has a nice back round and parents and family that care about you.

Tonight was most deff. a momentous night for me, I got to teach for 10 minutes for the first time in SPIN CLASS! I was just running along on the treadmill before spin class, when my favorite little spin instructor Liz came up and asked me if I would like to do a few songs tonight. I was originally supposed to this last week, but with all that happened with my grandfather I wasn't really in the peppiest mood to teach lol, and for those of you who have taken spin class, you know it takes a TON of pep and energy to teach one and even take it haha. Anyways I said yes, a little doubtful in my head lol. It was really neat though because my mom and brother actually came to the gym with me tonight so I knew they would be able to see me do it, and they had actually never seen the class I take in action before haha. I went into class like always, got my bike up front cause I figure might as well get in the front and get really into it and get the best workout possible lol! Once Liz realizes my mom and brother are there to watch she offered to let me do the first couple songs of the night....NERVE RACKING lol! I was like "Sure.....sounds good!". So I go up put on my little microphone and adjust my bike and hop on in front of like 35 people on bikes lol! One just happened to be a guy I "may have a thing for" haha, I will get into that some other time :). Anyways I was like ok what do I do now haha! I put on a good easy song from Liz's ipod called "Sexy Chick" by Akon haha, I know crazy but ya gotta have some crazy music to spin lol ;). It was a pretty easy song to direct and tell people to go forward and back and forward and back. Well in the very back of the class there is this very animated guy who is yellin and just having a great time lol, and making me laugh the whole time haha! It was nice though because he made it less awkward haha! I then did a climbing song(where we slowly add more and more resistance and then stand and push through it), and then did a Fergie song haha :). It was SO fun and by the third song I didn't want to give the bike back to the real instructor haha! Good news is though I get to teach the class next Thursday while Liz is on vacation!! I am actually meeting with her this Saturday morning and we are going to go over everything and do it and I will have the class to myself this coming Thursday YAY! I deff. think that will give me enough time to prepare and get myself all ready!

I wish I could share the feeling I had while on the bike and after, it was one I have only felt a few times throughout my journey, a feeling that is just out of this world lol. I think the last time I felt it was when I hit the 100lb mark and also when I broke through the wall as far as working out and I did the elliptical for an hour when I was still 250lbs. It's that feeling of pure awe that I was able to do something I NEVER thought I could do! I remember the days of not even thinking of EVER taking a spin/cycling class, because in mind it was just a joke or something I could never make it through and do. I never would have guessed I would one day be in front of a class of people teaching it myself! All the times I have doubted me and not had confidence were blown away tonight as I did something I never in a million years would have done before. Not only could the "old me" not have done it because of my weight but I wouldn't have even gone in the class let alone in front of it because my self-confidence was so low. I remember the days of being nervous to walk into the Y lol! It was so neat though because as I got off the class clapped and told me how great I did and that was SO awesome and made all the nervous feelings go away and made it all worth it :). It is deff. times like this were I look back and think just how far in a year I have come, and it really makes me appreciate what I have done. I know it would seem strange to forget that you lost 162lbs haha, and I do usually remember but it's kind of like with any other big events in life the more time that passes the more you forget what it was like. And I mean I still do a lot, but sometimes it takes moments like this for me to remember where I came from and where I started. I just hope in sharing this, this can inspire anyone to do anything. Don't let anything hold you back from what you want! I never would have thought that this time last year when I had been dieting for about 2 weeks and struggling so hard, that the next year I would be in front of a huge class of cycling people teaching them lol! It all goes back to my favorite saying that "NOTHING tastes as good as I feel!". Tonight's feeling of accomplishment is SO much better than any cheeseburger/pizza can ever give me lol! Well I am off to the shower and to relax tonight :), I hope everyone is having a great week and is ready for New Year's I am SO looking forward to 2010 and seeing what it has in store for me! Oh, and one more thing the new song on here is a new favorite of mine! I kind of stole it from the Biggest Loser previews haha but I loved the words and the song in general and DEFF. cannot wait for next Tuesday and for the new season of BL :o)!

~Kassandra

P.S.! *I almost forgot today is "Wishful Wed" at The Seattle Smith's blog and I deff. didn't want to miss that! Today's topic was ....."What do you Wish Santa would have brought you?" Well for me it would be this:

My inside-out-Vera lol! This is one of the new paterns and I deff. wanted it and especially since you could flip it from one side to the other. But....my birthday just HAPPENS to me Monday Jan. 4th lol, which has always been nice because whatever Santa forgets the birthday fairy brings lol! So....I am crossing my fingers for this one, cause I totally need a new bag and I have been in love with this one since it came out lol! I have the keychain thing and wallet and keep waiting for the bag, so let's hope :). This was deff. a fun topic and I think we all have those things  we "wished" we would have gotten, but don't get me wrong Santa was still good to me lol :o).